Why am I cynical and more serious?

Join the "Lost Generation". Everyone goes through phases in their life and just as you have ped through these phases, you will p through more. Realize that their is more to life, and that not everything is about YOU. Life is much more interesting when you attempt to bring a better life to others, to give of yourself. Beyond egocentricity, there is social consciousness, and beyond that, there is universal consciousness.